Subject: A Horny Survivor

Dear Jack,

Been a fan for years. Thank you for many a one handed wonder. I live in Vancouver Canada and would first of all like to say “I am proud of you” We are proud of you…to any gay man ,especially those who fuck on the fringe, live on the fringe and love on the fringe , without crystal .

I am a recovering crystal addict Jack. EVERYTHING you have lovingly cautioned against is true. At the age of 38 years I tried speed for the first time. I had always enjoyed man sex, raunch, and, oh boy, BAREBACK. A romantic adventurer I thought, Hell I’ll try anything once…twice and more if it feels good. This chunky , powdery, stinky shit was just ……..mmmm. I am a leather top, always goodlooking, high spirited, fun loving, intelligent, and passionate.

My first taste was late night at a bath house in Vancouver …some one …a circle of some ones who all “partied”…FF especially. Crystal even introduced me to a boyfriend. Cute skinny bottom boy who loved to get fucked and take my and other pigs, loads up his…you get it. I LOVED Wayne. HMMM. We had not much in common it seemed excepted when we would get HIghhh.

Sound FABULOUS??

A nightmare. A complete nightmare in every way Jack. As I mentioned am an experienced sexual creature, love it, never been ashamed of it. Crystal took that away. Within months of “trying ‘this hot raunch drug I lost my home, my looks…went from big strong butch to skinny hollow eyed geek, my career, Wayne and most hurtful my self esteem and confidence.

I went through three months of detox hell, followed by another three to five months of in patient and follow up out patient treatment. I am clean for 16 months . My doctor … several doctors including a neurologist, a cardiac specialist, an endocrinologist and a psychiatrist… have “assured me that as long as I stay clean my brain, cardio vascular system and my libido May heal in three to five ….YEARS.

All that because I thought that a “bump “a hoot ..a little party favour.taste, snort ..whatever ..might be hot or wild or WHATEVER.

I look forward to being able to get excited about sex again. Without first thinking about taking a hit. Without thinking that the only way I can be a HOT top again will happen. I work hard at this thing called recovery…ain’t easy .

Please know that it isn’t only young party boys or “losers” (been called both and worse) that can fall prey to this most toxic “party favour”

God Bless.

Rob da Rimmer !